Monday, August 28, 2006
Blah.
ang almusal ay sigaw at ang hapunan natin ay tampuhan.. ang miryenda, pagdududa.. pero mahal kita wala ng hahanapin pang iba.. handa akong magtiis..
I love that song. You know, after so much of sacrificing I'm not expecting something in return. Like loving me for real or whatever, my goal is just for you to feel how much I love and care for you. It's not about receiving all you want, its about giving.
dahil sayo natuto ako magmahal ng totoo,
dahil sayo natutunan ko kung pano magsakripisyo,
dahil sayo hindi ko na kilala ang sarili ko,
dahil sayo hindi ko nirerespeto sarili ko,
at dahil din sayo kaya natatakot na ako, takot na ako magmahal
What does love mean anyway?
Well for me, love is EVERYTHING. Love isn't how much you can get, but how much you can give. Its not about giving up but holding on. Its not about how you say "i love you" but how you show that its true. All our lives we have been hearing different people saying different views on love. But sometimes all we get is confussion and we end up hurting ourselves. Love is being happy despite the pain, because when it hurts, its real. It is love when we give something and without expecting something in return. Love is risking everything for the happiness of someone. Love, for most it is called SACRIFICE but I name it BULLSHIT.
***
Why did God allow me to suffer like this? But thanks anyway.
I love that song. You know, after so much of sacrificing I'm not expecting something in return. Like loving me for real or whatever, my goal is just for you to feel how much I love and care for you. It's not about receiving all you want, its about giving.
dahil sayo natuto ako magmahal ng totoo,
dahil sayo natutunan ko kung pano magsakripisyo,
dahil sayo hindi ko na kilala ang sarili ko,
dahil sayo hindi ko nirerespeto sarili ko,
at dahil din sayo kaya natatakot na ako, takot na ako magmahal
What does love mean anyway?
Well for me, love is EVERYTHING. Love isn't how much you can get, but how much you can give. Its not about giving up but holding on. Its not about how you say "i love you" but how you show that its true. All our lives we have been hearing different people saying different views on love. But sometimes all we get is confussion and we end up hurting ourselves. Love is being happy despite the pain, because when it hurts, its real. It is love when we give something and without expecting something in return. Love is risking everything for the happiness of someone. Love, for most it is called SACRIFICE but I name it BULLSHIT.
***
Why did God allow me to suffer like this? But thanks anyway.
because i'm just someone in love with you ... at 8:19 PM
0 people told me what i'm doing is stupid
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Friday, August 25, 2006
DEATH
Currently: “Nagpapakamanhid”.. … Yeah, whatever.
January 14, 2006. The best day of my life. Sinagot ko siya. Sobrang saya. At first he calls me “muffin” and he’s my “cheesecake”. Then after sometime, I call him “daddy” and he calls me “mommy”. After that we’ve changed. I call him “baby ko” and he calls me the same way too. We were so happy in love. Teasing each other like idiots, talking to the phone, going out, having fun with each other, etc. Madly in love. Basta masaya.
After couple of months, he changed. Ever since he told me he’s jealous of “boys” talking to me. So………he made a rule “NO TALKING TO BOYS, NO TEXTING OR ANY COMMUNICATION TO THEM”. It was just like “AKIN KA LANG, SAKIN KA LANG MAGTETEXT, AKIN LAHAT NG ATTENTION MO”. I always break that rule. I’m not a type of person who’s snobbish anyway. So it didn’t bother me. Nagsinungaling ako sa kanya. Until there’s a time when he knew my little secret. He got angry. I said I’m sorry and that wont happen again, I promise. But NO, I break that rule all over again. Over and over AGAIN. Napuno na siguro siya. He even made more rules. ALWAYS TURN OFF YOUR CELLPHONNE WHEN I’M NOT TEXTING YOU, DON’T YOU EVER LIE TO ME, YOU MUST TELL ME EVERYTHING YOU’LL DO, NO DANCING, etc. Parang buong buhay ko pinagbawal niya na. I can’t do that “perfectly”, so he got angry. Dumating na sa puntong, minumura niya ako. Basta may nagawa akong mali, GALIT. Konting mali, GALIT. I’m confused. I must follow each instructions he told me, and I must tell him everything I do, everything that is hgappening to me including time, place, day. I’m afraid, really afraid. Natatakot ako kasi sobra siya magalit.
Well this is the real part.
I gave him EVERYTHING. My life, my heart, my soul. Kung ano sinabi niya, dapat ko sundin yun. Pag sinabi niyang pumunta ka sa bahay, kahit EXAM pupunta ako. Ang dami ko ng sacrifice sa kanya. Friends, studies, family, money, LAHAT. Ang tanong, ANO BA NAIBIGAY NIYA SAKIN? I’m such a fool. Kahit ipakita niya nga lang na mahal niya ako, WALA. Nung una naman hindi ganito eh. Kulang lang sa kanya TIWALA. Wala siyang tiwala sa akin. Hindi ko alam gagawin ko. Naiipit ako. Pag Nagasaki ako ng totoo, assailing niyang nagsisinungaling ako. Pag ginawa ko ayaw niya, especially the “boy” thing, magagalit siya. Pag nagsinungaling ako, magagalit siya. LAGI SIYA GALIT. Hindi ko alam gagawin ko!!! You gave me nothing. And now you left me, paano na ako? Mga sacrifices ko? Shitness.
Kahit sana pakita mo lang na mahal mo ako.
January 14, 2006. The best day of my life. Sinagot ko siya. Sobrang saya. At first he calls me “muffin” and he’s my “cheesecake”. Then after sometime, I call him “daddy” and he calls me “mommy”. After that we’ve changed. I call him “baby ko” and he calls me the same way too. We were so happy in love. Teasing each other like idiots, talking to the phone, going out, having fun with each other, etc. Madly in love. Basta masaya.
After couple of months, he changed. Ever since he told me he’s jealous of “boys” talking to me. So………he made a rule “NO TALKING TO BOYS, NO TEXTING OR ANY COMMUNICATION TO THEM”. It was just like “AKIN KA LANG, SAKIN KA LANG MAGTETEXT, AKIN LAHAT NG ATTENTION MO”. I always break that rule. I’m not a type of person who’s snobbish anyway. So it didn’t bother me. Nagsinungaling ako sa kanya. Until there’s a time when he knew my little secret. He got angry. I said I’m sorry and that wont happen again, I promise. But NO, I break that rule all over again. Over and over AGAIN. Napuno na siguro siya. He even made more rules. ALWAYS TURN OFF YOUR CELLPHONNE WHEN I’M NOT TEXTING YOU, DON’T YOU EVER LIE TO ME, YOU MUST TELL ME EVERYTHING YOU’LL DO, NO DANCING, etc. Parang buong buhay ko pinagbawal niya na. I can’t do that “perfectly”, so he got angry. Dumating na sa puntong, minumura niya ako. Basta may nagawa akong mali, GALIT. Konting mali, GALIT. I’m confused. I must follow each instructions he told me, and I must tell him everything I do, everything that is hgappening to me including time, place, day. I’m afraid, really afraid. Natatakot ako kasi sobra siya magalit.
Well this is the real part.
I gave him EVERYTHING. My life, my heart, my soul. Kung ano sinabi niya, dapat ko sundin yun. Pag sinabi niyang pumunta ka sa bahay, kahit EXAM pupunta ako. Ang dami ko ng sacrifice sa kanya. Friends, studies, family, money, LAHAT. Ang tanong, ANO BA NAIBIGAY NIYA SAKIN? I’m such a fool. Kahit ipakita niya nga lang na mahal niya ako, WALA. Nung una naman hindi ganito eh. Kulang lang sa kanya TIWALA. Wala siyang tiwala sa akin. Hindi ko alam gagawin ko. Naiipit ako. Pag Nagasaki ako ng totoo, assailing niyang nagsisinungaling ako. Pag ginawa ko ayaw niya, especially the “boy” thing, magagalit siya. Pag nagsinungaling ako, magagalit siya. LAGI SIYA GALIT. Hindi ko alam gagawin ko!!! You gave me nothing. And now you left me, paano na ako? Mga sacrifices ko? Shitness.
Kahit sana pakita mo lang na mahal mo ako.
because i'm just someone in love with you ... at 8:35 PM
0 people told me what i'm doing is stupid
0 people told me what i'm doing is stupid
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Marshmallow
Lurfees!! ^_^ Look at what we did. So cute. ^_^
Me and Kezzia
Cute cute.. ^_^
Robot ni Nikki.. Wee!
Me and Kezzia
Cute cute.. ^_^
Robot ni Nikki.. Wee!
because i'm just someone in love with you ... at 8:33 PM
0 people told me what i'm doing is stupid
0 people told me what i'm doing is stupid
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Photos
Visit my spaces. These contains pictures, etc. ^_^
Click here! Enjoy!
Click here! Enjoy!
because i'm just someone in love with you ... at 8:30 PM
0 people told me what i'm doing is stupid
0 people told me what i'm doing is stupid
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Okay
We're okay. We're so akay. Hm, nagkamali din ako kaya siya nagkaganyan. He came to realize na, hindi niya dapat ako ginanon. ^_^ I'm happy! Yey! ^_^ And he promise me not to do that again. Ahui. Party!
Ganito magmahal. Mahirap, pero masaya.
~*~
Sorry baby!! Sorry, sorry kung pinost ko pa dito sa blog.. I would like this people to know how much I love you kaya ko nilagay. Hm. Okay na tayo diba ^_^ Wag ka na sad.. ^_^
Ganito magmahal. Mahirap, pero masaya.
~*~
Sorry baby!! Sorry, sorry kung pinost ko pa dito sa blog.. I would like this people to know how much I love you kaya ko nilagay. Hm. Okay na tayo diba ^_^ Wag ka na sad.. ^_^
because i'm just someone in love with you ... at 9:54 PM
0 people told me what i'm doing is stupid
0 people told me what i'm doing is stupid
